"Explain to me, what's going on between you and that scu.mbag?" Three days had passed since the heat period, Song Jinzhi remembered that she still owed Jing Yu an explanation, so she took the initiative to call her out. When they arrived at the café, before Song Jinzhi could even sit down, she was met with Jing Yu's impatient questioning. Sighing, Song Jinzhi sat down across from Jing Yu, contemplating how to start.
"A'yu, I was with her." Song Jinzhi thought for a moment before choosing this as her opening line. Jing Yu was sipping tea with her head down and couldn't immediately register what was said.
"Oh? What do you mean by that?" Jing Yu reflexively asked, then realized something was off and suddenly came to her senses, nearly choking on her tea.
"You mean, you slept with her? Did she force you? I knew it, that scu.mbag has bad intentions!" Jing Yu, overwhelmed with emotion, suddenly raised her voice. Seeing the curious glances from others around them, she quickly covered her mouth. Hearing her outburst, Song Jinzhi covered her face, looking as if she didn't want to admit she knew Jing Yu.
"A'yu, please calm down."
"How can I calm down? Did she take advantage of you during your heat period?" Jing Yu's expression remained one of indignation, though her voice was much lower now. Noticing the anger in her eyes, Song Jinzhi shook her head and briefly explained the changes in Gu Sijiu since the accident, including the day Gu Sijiu took the initiative to get close to her, and even mentioned spending time with Gu Sijiu again during the recent heat period.
This part was long, and Song Jinzhi spoke for quite a while. After she finished, she saw Jing Yu staring at her in shock, unsure how much she had absorbed.
"Wait a moment, let me digest this. You're saying that a scu.mbag suddenly lost her memory, became a caring and gentle Alpha who can cook, and then you, having lost control during your heat period, ended up being with her?" Jing Yu asked softly after taking a big sip of black tea. Song Jinzhi nodded, only to see Jing Yu looking at her in frustration.
"A'jin, I always thought you were a rational person, but I didn't expect you to be so confused about this. If that scu.mbag pretended for years to pursue you, she's likely just acting again to trick you into marrying her." Jing Yu looked anxious, and seeing her genuine concern warmed Song Jinzhi's heart.
"A'yu, I know you're worried about me, but the way she is now really doesn't seem like an act. No matter how well someone disguises themselves, their eyes can't lie. If she were truly pretending, she could have easily marked me during the heat period, and I wouldn't have been able to escape." Song Jinzhi spoke softly, her hand, resting beside her, was grasped by Jing Yu, and she looked up to meet Jing Yu's serious gaze.
"A'jin, haven't you noticed that you're already making excuses for her, even speaking up for her? I don't know what she did during this time to earn such trust from you. Even if we assume she really has amnesia, there will come a day when she remembers everything. At that point, she will revert to the violent and cun.ning scu.mbag she once was. Have you thought about the consequences of that?"
"A'yu... I understand." Jing Yu's words plunged Song Jinzhi into deep thought. Although she said she understood, she wasn't truly prepared for this. Perhaps it was because Gu Sijiu had changed so much recently—becoming gentle and considerate—that she had forgotten the past and the basic dangers involved. It's true that a person with amnesia will eventually regain their memories, even Gu Sijiu's doctor had mentioned that her amnesia was temporary. Once Gu Sijiu returned to her original self, how would she face her then?
Song Jinzhi wasn't naïve, nor was she oblivious to her own feelings. She could sense that she was gradually developing different emotions toward Gu Sijiu. However, A'yu's words struck a chord within her, ringing alarm bells. Yes, Gu Sijiu's true nature wasn't like this, the current version of her felt unreal and incomplete. The real Gu Sijiu was the one who mocked her, harbored dark thoughts, lost her temper, and could even become violent.
"A'jin, I'm not saying this to upset you. I just want you to remember that no matter how much someone changes, their true nature is hard to alter. Unless they become a completely different person, Gu Sijiu will always be that scu.mbag. I don't want to see you deceived or hurt even more by her. You need to protect yourself and not let her mark you."
"A'yu, I understand what you mean. I've never let my guard down around her, and I won't let her mark me. Right now, it's just a mutually beneficial arrangement, after all, the Omega's heat is not easy to endure." Song Jinzhi said, looking down. After she finished speaking, she noticed Jing Yu leaning in with curiosity, as if she had guessed what Song Jinzhi was about to say. Her ears turned slightly red.
"Yeah, it's good that you know. But... you've been single for so long, and now you're finally experiencing a revival, like a withered tree blooming. Although I don't really like that scu.mbag, at least she can help you get through the heat, and you don't have to endure it so harshly anymore." Jing Yu said, feeling somewhat relieved. As a Beta, she didn't fully understand what the Omega's heat entailed, but she had seen how Song Jinzhi suffered during it.
She felt sorry for her friend having to endure such pain and had previously advised Song Jinzhi to indulge and find someone suitable to help her. However, Song Jinzhi never agreed. Now that she could find Gu Sijiu to help her, Jing Yu understood and didn't oppose it. The two were close friends, and Jing Yu often shared inti.mate matters with Song Jinzhi. Having broken up with her previous Alpha over six months ago, hearing that Song Jinzhi was finally getting involved sparked her curiosity.
"A'jin, how is that scu.mbag in bed? Is the size acceptable? Did it make you uncomfortable?" Jing Yu hinted, and her way of asking was quite direct. Realizing what she was implying, Song Jinzhi couldn't help but think back to the heat cycle that had just ended two days ago, the most memorable and vivid scenes that kept replaying in her mind. Gu Sijiu lying on the bed in a disheveled and flushed state made Song Jinzhi's face turn red as she tried hard not to think about it and took a small sip of her slightly bitter coffee.
"A'yu, right now she and I are just bed partners—nothing more than that. Let's not talk about her." Song Jinzhi said, feeling somewhat down after her conversation with Jing Yu. Seeing that she genuinely didn't want to bring up Gu Sijiu again, Jing Yu tactfully chose not to ask further.
"A'yu, it's almost time for my visit to Ruolai." Song Jinzhi's voice softened a bit. Upon hearing her mention Qin Ruolai's name, Jing Yu's expression became serious. She only had a vague memory of Qin Ruolai from their university days, they hadn't been close back then. If it weren't for Song Jinzhi, she wouldn't have known Qin Ruolai at all.
"Okay, let me know when you're going. It's been a while since I visited her too. A'jin, have you truly let go of your feelings for her now?" Jing Yu cautiously brought it up, and after hearing this, Song Jinzhi nodded in relief. Qin Ruolai was their university classmate and the first person Song Jinzhi had feelings for.
Compared to most young girls, Song Jinzhi didn't fall in love early. At that time, she met Qin Ruolai, a person who radiated warmth. Qin Ruolai had a gentle personality, and being with her felt very comfortable. Song Jinzhi had many friends, but she felt that Qin Ruolai was different—not like Jing Yu or any other friend, being with Qin Ruolai made her feel at ease.
They maintained an ambiguous relationship back then. Song Jinzhi didn't fully understand what it meant to like someone, and Qin Ruolai never formally confessed. This relationship continued until their graduation, when Qin Ruolai tragically died in a car accident. It was only after her death that Song Jinzhi realized her feelings for Qin Ruolai were more than just friendship.
After Qin Ruolai's death, the regret and sadness left Song Jinzhi in a slump for quite some time. During that period, the person who accompanied her was the pretentious Gu Sijiu. While Song Jinzhi was grateful for Gu Sijiu's presence and gradually moved out of the shadow of Qin Ruolai, she didn't expect that Gu Sijiu would bring even more darkness into her life.
Years have passed, and Song Jinzhi's feelings for Qin Ruolai had long faded. They never got together, and their innocent feelings were snuffed out before they could take root. Thinking back on Qin Ruolai, Song Jinzhi's impression of her was just a vague outline—a classmate with whom she had shared university days, nothing more.
"A'yu, I should head back now. I know how to handle things with Gu Sijiu, don't worry."
"Okay, as long as you're clear about it. If she dares to bu.lly you, I'll help you deal with her." Jing Yu said seriously, and Song Jinzhi smiled and nodded in response. She drove home and, as soon as she opened the door, saw Gu Sijiu lying on the couch, looking up at her.
Gu Sijiu was wearing a nightgown with a little hamster print, her bright red eyes sparkling when she saw Song Jinzhi, giving her an innocent look. However, thinking of her earlier conversation with Jing Yu, Song Jinzhi's heart sank. Gu Sijiu's kindness was evident. She helped Song Jinzhi through tough times at work and brought her meals, even if her words didn't match her heart. Her little gestures had seeped into Song Jinzhi's life.
Once, Song Jinzhi could confidently say she would never develop feelings for Gu Sijiu, but now she couldn't be so certain. She had not only accepted Gu Sijiu's current personality but even welcomed their inti.mate touches, becoming captivated by her appearance and body. Song Jinzhi hoped that Gu Sijiu could remain this way forever, but she understood the truth in Jing Yu's words. She was not a young person who would let love cloud her judgment.
Gu Sijiu was doing well now, but the insults and pain she had inflicted on Song Jinzhi in the past were real. One day, those painful memories might resurface when Gu Sijiu regained her memory, becoming new sources of suffering. Song Jinzhi glanced at Gu Sijiu, who was still stealing glances at her, and silently went upstairs.
How could a person be so completely bad, yet also so good that it draws you in? That feeling of two different people left Song Jinzhi conflicted, making her feel at a loss about how to face Gu Sijiu.
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