After seeing off Gu Sijiu and Song Jinzhi, Evie also went home with Wen Qiulan. Wen Qiulan had intended to drop Evie off at her own place, but Evie insisted on staying at her house. Wen Qiulan couldn't bear to refuse her, so she agreed. On the way back, Wen Qiulan noticed that Evie had become very quiet. She had been perfectly normal at the dinner, but now she seemed upset.
"Xiao Yi, what's wrong?" Wen Qiulan had never seen Evie like this before. Now, Evie was leaning her head on one hand against the side of the car seat, gazing silently out the window. This version of Evie exuded an inexplicable distance.
"Lan Lan, I just have some things on my mind. I don't know if you really see me as a lover." Evie said, glancing back at Wen Qiulan, who looked surprised, before lowering her head again.
In fact, Evie couldn't quite pinpoint why she felt the need to say this. The thought had been weighing on her mind for a while, leaving her feeling uneasy. It had been nearly a month since they confirmed their relationship, and in every way, Wen Qiulan was an incredibly perfect lover. She was gentle and considerate, never doing anything disrespectful or losing her temper.
Anyone else would likely feel fortunate to have such a lover, but Evie felt that her relationship with Wen Qiulan was too bland. When you like someone, there is usually a desire. However, Evie wasn't primarily driven by s.ex. She had many bed partners, but only three serious relationships, with Wen Qiulan being the most special among them.
Over the past month, Evie had stayed over at Wen Qiulan's house many times. They often kissed and shared the same pillow while sleeping. Evie felt a strong desire for Wen Qiulan. Even a casual kiss made her want to take things further. In contrast, Wen Qiulan remained calm and collected, only blushing slightly during a passionate kiss, then looking at Evie with tenderness.
Evie even began to doubt whether Wen Qiulan truly liked her. If she did, why didn't she want her? Or was it that, being an Omega, her charm just wasn't enough? Of course, Evie didn't want to admit either of these points. On the other hand, was it possible that Lan Lan was simply not very se.xual? But Evie had touched her, and she could feel that there was desire there—it didn't seem like a lack of attraction at all.
Evie originally thought that these things would take time, sooner or later, Lan Lan would succumb to her teasing and become inti.mate with her. However, after seeing Gu Sijiu and Song Jinzhi today, that thought gradually faded away. She liked Wen Qiulan so much, wanting to hear her breathy gasps, wanting to see her find comfort in her, and wanting to satisfy Wen Qiulan. These thoughts burst forth in Evie's mind, and the months of abstinence only worsened her mood.
There was a prolonged silence inside the car after Evie finished speaking. Wen Qiulan glanced at Evie but didn't rush to explain. Only after they returned home did she pull Evie onto the sofa, preparing for a serious conversation. A lack of communication in a relationship can often be the most fatal crisis for a couple.
"Xiao Yi, why do you feel that way?" Wen Qiulan sat next to Evie, gently holding her hand, a hint of anxiousness in her tone. Evie felt a bit irritated. She knew she was being unreasonable, but couldn't shake off the negative emotions. She attributed everything to the upcoming heat cycle, which was causing her thoughts to become muddled.
"Lan Lan, I'm sorry. That's not what I meant. I just feel... like I can't sense your love towards me. I'm an Omega, and you're my Alpha. Every time I catch your scent, I feel excited and enchanted. Being close to you brings me joy, but your feelings for me seem too indifferent, which gives me the impression that you don't really like me that much."
Evie was speaking honestly. She admitted that expecting Wen Qiulan to have the same feelings was asking too much. After all, she was the one who actively pursued Wen Qiulan. Perhaps the other person hadn't yet adapted to life as a couple. While Evie was lost in her thoughts, Wen Qiulan had been watching her. The familiar warmth in her eyes had diminished, replaced by suppressed ardor.
"Xiao Yi, if my attitude has led you to feel this way, I apologize. I've been trying to figure out how to love someone, and what I can do to make you happy. It's not that I don't like you, I just struggle to express how much I care for you directly. I don't want to be close to you too quickly, as I fear it might make you uncomfortable. In my heart, you are my lover, my Omega."
Wen Qiulan rarely expressed her inner thoughts to others. She preferred to organize everything perfectly and present it flawlessly to the other person. Evie didn't know that Wen Qiulan was composing a piece of music for her or how much Wen Qiulan cherished every night they spent together, carefully watching her sleeping face after she had fallen asleep. Wen Qiulan found satisfaction in these small gestures but overlooked Evie's feelings. She knew she had made a mistake in making her lover feel insecure.
Evie never expected Wen Qiulan to say such domineering words. After hearing them, she was so stunned that she forgot how to respond. Her heart raced. She had heard countless sweet words, more glamorous than what Wen Qiulan offered, but none had evoked a stronger sense of excitement than what Wen Qiulan stirred within her.
"Lan Lan, I... um..." Evie opened her mouth, wanting to apologize to Wen Qiulan for doubting her lover just a month into their relationship.
Feeling embarrassed by her sudden drop in emotional intelligence, Evie struggled with herself. She couldn't get the apology out before Wen Qiulan's kiss silenced her.
This wasn't the first time Wen Qiulan had kissed her, but it was the most passionate one yet. The gentle and caring Alpha cradled her head softly with one hand and caressed her back with the other. Their lips and tongues intertwined, and with just one kiss, Evie's restless emotions returned to normal. Wen Qiulan was truly skilled at soothing her.
"Xiao Yi, I want to do everything I can to cherish you." said Wen Qiulan, who was naturally introverted. After saying so much and taking the initiative to kiss, she seemed to have exhausted all her courage.
Seeing her blush as they locked eyes, Evie smiled and nestled into her embrace as she usually did. Since they had opened up about their feelings, Evie had no intentions of leaving Wen Qiulan's arms.
"Lan Lan, I won't think of you like that anymore. Just consider me as someone who's been abstinent for too long and isn't thinking clearly. Actually, there's one more thing I want to talk to you about." Feeling the atmosphere was right, Evie decided it was the perfect time to bring it up. Hearing this, Wen Qiulan responded with a soft "mm," indicating for her to continue.
"Lan Lan, we've known each other for a long time and have been together for a while now. I know you might think it's too fast, but the need for Alpha and Omega to be together is undeniable. My heat cycle is coming soon, and I want to go through it with you. However, I don't want our first time to be just because of the heat cycle, I want to make love to you while we are both clear-headed."
When Evie said the words "make love," she deliberately lowered her voice, biting Wen Qiulan's ear as she spoke, successfully turning her stoic Alpha into a blushing tomato. Wen Qiulan knew that Xiao Yi had always wanted to be close to her. She did feel it was moving too fast, but what Xiao Yi said now wasn't unreasonable.
"Xiao Yi, I understand what you mean. I... I'm okay with that. You can decide the timing."
"Then let's do it now." Seeing Wen Qiulan agree, Evie immediately jumped with joy. She couldn't wait to strip Wen Qiulan's clothes off and have with her pink baby.
"Xiao Yi, not tonight. There's still a lot to prepare. Can you wait a little longer? I want to get everything ready so you won't feel uncomfortable."
Wen Qiulan had never had inti.mate experiences with an Omega and hadn't even watched any related films. Her understanding of Alpha and Omega relations was limited to physiological structures and what was taught in class. Since she was going to be inti.mate with Evie, Wen Qiulan wanted to make everything perfect. Evie thought it was cute that Wen Qiulan wanted to set a time for their first time, she truly was a bit reserved.
So, they decided to set the time for the following night, and for that evening, they would just go to bed and do nothing else. The next morning, when Wen Qiulan saw Evie still sleeping, she went out to the largest supermarket nearby to buy some essentials for that kind of thing, starting with con.doms. She didn't understand the brands and styles, nor did she grasp what the various shapes and textures meant. Especially since the sales clerk kept glancing over, Wen Qiulan felt extremely embarrassed. She randomly picked a few that looked the best and most expensive, and also bought many household items to cover her tracks before heading to the checkout.
After buying these things, Wen Qiulan returned home to find Evie already awake. The two of them didn't plan to go out and instead decided to lounge around the house. Evie lay in bed watching interesting videos online, while Wen Qiulan seriously sat in the study, researching what needed to be done for Alpha and Omega's first time. She didn't watch any ero.tic films, she believed that while they might provide some understanding, many exaggerated for visual effect, which might make Evie uncomfortable.
In an era where most people learned about s.ex through movies, Wen Qiulan sat at her computer with glasses on, studying human anatomy and physiological analysis books. Whenever she had a question, she would open educational videos to further her understanding, writing reflections and notes throughout.
Finally, the evening arrived. With all the preparations, the situation felt more awkward than if it had happened casually. Evie didn't want to tease Wen Qiulan too much, so she suggested they each take a shower separately. When she finished, she found Wen Qiulan already sitting upright on the bed in her pajamas, looking serious and well-behaved. In contrast, Evie simply emerged wrapped in a towel.
"Is Lan Lan nervous?" Evie saw Wen Qiulan taking deep breaths non-stop and couldn't help but smile. Without waiting for a response, she straddled Wen Qiulan, caressing her face with one hand and moving the other down to her lower abdomen, sliding directly towards her legs, skillfully grasping the slightly awakened area.
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